For afew days I felt that I lost my complet enerjy and I felt bad.in th emorning it was difficult to wake up and everyday I was in no good mood.during the trekking my eyes found a little bit problem and after that when I was cycling at night something goes to my eyes and it made my eyes very painful and it had a red point on it and in the other hand I got cold and some news from Iran got too much enerjy of me and just I had to be alone to recover myself.it is really difficult to be in line with others and they cant undrestand you and just they think and think and think.at first I trusted my way then I left my home and it means that I am ready for every situation ,but in the other hand there is some other person who are involved with my trip and I can do nothing,it is my life style and I can imagin everything about my life but what about others?
now I could overcome on this thougts and feel relax .even in these days whenever that I wanted to find a way for planting tree I found that I have no enerjy to do that and right now juat I wast the time and in fact I was fighting with thought that pushed me from others.
Yes there is a river and just I am fellowing on it and I dont move there ,just I let it to bring me .so I decided to ignore emails and just look at front.I am sure that GOD and nature will help me.they wont leave me alone.

Tonight I have really special feeling which I have never had for ages.I can express myself how this feeling is great .just you think that I drank 2 bottle of strong black wine and just I am flying and surfing in waves.I can not explain how everything is becoming together to achive and to reach my way.just as I has written befor I trusted the river and just now I am surfing and there is noting to do,nothing.when I was befor the trip everyone told me how you want provide money for you etrip and something like that.just I trusted to GOD and I knew through my dreams that everything will become true and just I have to go and go .when I wanted to leave Iran I had to put almost all of my money in bank as a deposit for master card which it was about 2000EUR and for sure for me it was everything and just I started with 300$,but I did my trip for more than 100 days and just I am following right now.a few days befor my frind send me a message that Mohammad your account is almost empty and we couldnt find any sponsor right now,so a little be carful about your expences.hey guys dont worry ,really dont worry ,who I trusted to ,will do everything and will provide all apportunity to continue.I cant explain for others how I feel calm about traveling expences and everything.I trusted to the river of life and just I am surfing on. no fight with anything and no try to catch anything,everythings will become with them self.how I can explain that how all events happens by exact time to be in special place to have or do special thing.it maybe is a meeting or even a look that can change everything is your life.
3 days in Kathmandu and learning more and more from a guy who I met him accidentaly with a tato of tree in his arm.from the start just I was moving and moving and now for a few days I want to do nothing and just listen to myself.
tonight again I could open all the windows of my heart and I can love everyone and everything by all of my heart ,again I remember how it is unfair jadjment about others,how we can love everything,how we can enjoy of everything and how everything is beautiful and lovely,even theguys how try to chit you on the street .I dont know what I am writing and just I am writing.
just thanks GOD and nothing